( there are tears in his eyes. moments like these... nightmares like these? trying to process what he's watched is too difficult. some things feel too fast while others are too slow; van's desires are blatantly obvious but would be even clearer if they still had that bond. perhaps he would feel it almost too much? but he would prefer that over the possibility of being wrong. to make van recoil and bottle it up, hide and conceal.
it takes him some time to open his journal, write what he feels. )
sender: lio
it takes him some time to open his journal, write what he feels. )
I'm glad he's there.