[His explanation done, van Zieks keeps his attention on his younger companion, watching as that ire begins to make way for what he hopes is understanding. There are clearly internal connections being made, considerations over what he's just heard—which can only be expected. They both have... a number of things to process. Realization and acceptance are not simple switches to be flipped.]

I appreciate your sympathy nevertheless. And you have my deepest condolences for your loss.

[Although the gravity of his typical demeanor hasn't changed, there is certainly a level of something softer in his tone that's uncommon with the man.]

Though I know well how suck betrayal makes it difficult to trust any, much less with such personal feelings... I pray you do not forget that there are still those around you who remain genuine in their desire to ease those burdens and help you find the answers you seek.

[He takes his own cup of now-chilled tea in hand, partly to distract himself. It's easier to speak of these things if he doesn't think too hard about the circumstances, and simply allows himself to express his thoughts.]

I made those mistakes for far too long. ... It is a dark existence I would not wish on another.