[Is she... a little relieved that he isn't going to ask? He probably doesn't need to. Eustace is the sort to have already made his judgements. She would like to think that he'd understand. Perhaps he does. Maybe she just wants him to understand. But she can't say that because she doesn't deserve that.
If she had it her way at all, she'd probably just close her journal and not even address it. Just leave it as is. Maybe open it again in another month. That's cowardly. Sure, she's a coward, isn't she, but that's not the way to handle this and she knows it. Either way, it takes her some time to provide him with a response that he very much deserves.]
Worse than usual.
[No. She's always felt guilty and awful and horrible since her arrival. It's just that everyone else might be able to see it now. If she doesn't pull herself together remotely, that is.]
My healing proceeds, if that is what you are asking.
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If she had it her way at all, she'd probably just close her journal and not even address it. Just leave it as is. Maybe open it again in another month. That's cowardly. Sure, she's a coward, isn't she, but that's not the way to handle this and she knows it. Either way, it takes her some time to provide him with a response that he very much deserves.]
Worse than usual.
[No. She's always felt guilty and awful and horrible since her arrival. It's just that everyone else might be able to see it now. If she doesn't pull herself together remotely, that is.]
My healing proceeds, if that is what you are asking.