dreamcrystals | ~*~third entry*~

Sender: Meilin Lee
To: Everyone
Subject: A Big Confession

Okay I'm not sure how to go about this, but I'd super appreciate it if everyone read this??? Because I have a super huge confession to make and it's important to me. And it'd probably explain a lot about how I've been acting since I'm pretty sure I've weirded a lot out of you out.

Guess the best way to start is with the backstory. So like a super long time ago, my ancestor Sun Yee lived in this village during war time, and all the men went off to fight. But that left the village kinda defenseless, y'know? She wanted to protect her daughters so she prayed to the gods for help. So the gods gave her the ability to turn into a gigantic red panda so she could fight off any invaders and protect her home. Because she really loved red pandas.

Now I know that sounds SUPER MADE UP but I promise it's real because that ability got passed down through the generations - which leads to me. Whenever I get super emotional about anything (happy, sad, angry, you name it) I turn into the Panda. Sometimes just a small trigger will set off parts of the Panda, like ears and tail - so if you've seen me try to head my head or my butt, uh, yeah, that's why. Now some of you may be asking why I've been hiding this because we've got literal animals and demons walking and talking around this world like it's no biggie.

IT IS A SUPER BIGGIE IN MY WORLD. Like, no one thinks gods and magic actually exist??? I sure didn't! No one told me about this "blessing" until it happened to me like a few weeks before I came here! And I freaked out and nearly destroyed my home and temple! I'm already a huge target for bullying at my school, this would be infinity times worse! There is this ritual to seal up the Panda but this place grabbed me before we could do it!

But this world is different. Yeah, obviously. But like... everyone's so nice? And understanding? Plus while the idea of a giant Red Panda sounds super silly, that form of mine is actually really strong, so it could help fight monsters here and stuff. So... I'm not going to try and hide it anymore. As long as I'm here, I'm going to try and embrace it a little more. So, I guess, that's everything.

Wait no one last thing - If my mom ever comes here please don't tell her about any of this! Okay now I'm done.

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Really? What do you turn into?

Nothing, technically, but in a way, I am supposed to turn into a goddess.

WHAT

THAT'S WAY BETTER

[ she's picturing a flowy, pretty, all loving and powerful and kick-butt goddess! ]

[ Her imagination would be 100% correct. ]

I wish I could agree. Your Panda transformation sounds much easier to accomplish!

it's TOO easy! If I feel too hard, poof, there it is!

I'd much rather be a beautiful goddess instead of a smelly animal!

Well, if you want to be a goddess, first you have to convince Her to listen to you. You would think that it would be oh so easy to unlock a power that every one of your ancestors could use, but no matter how hard you pray, She simply ignores you.

oh

that sucks

she sounds like kind of super mean? like one of those mean cheerleader girls from movies?

[ ....Half of those words don't mean anything to Zelda. ]

I would not call her mean, per say. Absent, maybe. She would not listen, no matter how many times I prayed to her.

At least your Panda is there when you need it.

I've never really

[ She almost finishes writing "needed it", but pauses, remembering the certain things that made her reveal this in the first place. ]

okay so it has come in handy a few times

still think your goddess is being kind of mean though

sure my gods didn't think about putting a 'stop' button on this generational blessing thing but at least they listened the first time

It's all I ever asked. [ And gods-know Zelda has asked plenty of times. ]

But I also did not have my mother to teach me. To be honest, I envy you that.

[ Or at least, Zelda is assuming that Mei's mother taught her all about her heritage. Because why wouldn't she? ]

Edited 2022-10-04 14:19 (UTC)

well yes and no

My parents didn't tell me about the Panda "Blessing" until I already transformed

I think they thought it wouldn't happen for a while, but still. not cool. at all.

Really? You're a young woman, aren't you? Why did they wait so long to tell you?

An excellent question!!! and them telling me "aw gee we thought it wouldn't happen yet" didn't exactly make me feel better.

Indeed. Just because your parents did not expect it to happen to you at your age is no reason why they should have waited so long to tell you about it. Why, my parents told me about my heritage when I was very little, well before I was old enough to even begin my training.

EXACTLY

THANK YOU

maybe if they'd told me earlier I wouldn't have done it in school or destroyed so much stuff! I would have had time to prepare!

[ Destroyed stuff? Yikes. ]

Exactly. That was a terrible oversight on their part.

Were you at least able to begin your training before you arrived here?

not exactly???

i mean, i couldn't control it. I still have trouble here, but home was way worse. I locked myself up in my room because I kept transforming and destroying stuff.

All the more reason your parents should have prepared you in advance.

Your power is passed down matrilineally, correct? How did your mother handle it when you were younger?

[ She assumes Mei saw the Panda in action at some point before it awakened in her. After all, her mother is still alive. Surely she has used (or even lost control) of this power at some point in Mei's childhood. ]

i don't know, i haven't asked her. but she probably handled it like a pro, she's always perfect at everything she does.

She sounds like my mother, perfect in every way.

It's not fair to be the one who comes after that.

I'll say. I love her and I don't want her to be disappointed in me.

Why would she be disappointed?

let's just say I've done a lot of things here she wouldn't approve of

Well, she is not here right now, and I won't tell her if she ever arrives...

THANK YOU

that's super appreciated for real

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