<... I don't know. I just... it makes me feel weak, having all of these points that not only our enemies can push on but my own brain can push on. But like... what am I supposed to do about it? There's not much I can do other than buckle down and get to work, or retreat back into the hawk.>

[And he doesn't want to do that. Not when Rachel's around. Not when she makes him feel like he can still be human.]