It... changes how you think. The way you look at things, the way you look at yourself... and not necessaryly for the better in either case.

[It always seemed strange to him. How often people thought going through great suffering made you better, somehow. When in reality it made you feel like a broken mirror, a distortion of what you should have been had you been left alone.]

I see... a calculated risk that you didn't have all the information to make yet. It is hard to truly fathom such things before they are already happening. Our minds aren't really built for it, I think.