~*~second entry~*~

[itsgunnabe_mei]

Sender: Mei Lee
To: Everyone
Subject: An Observation???

okay so i've been here a while now and i've noticed something

i don't know the exact process of how the gods or people or whatever here pick people to help out

i don't know if it's completely random or an intricate process to determine who helps out but lately i've been leaning towards the latter for two reasons

one, i haven't met a single jerk or bully or even rude person here which is legit amazing and awesome BUT

SECOND

IS IT JUST MY IMAGINATION OR IS EVERYONE HERE LIKE INSANELY RIDICIOUSLY GOOD LOOKING

REALLY THO

ALL THE ADULTS COULD BE SUPER-MODELS AND ALL THE KIDS COULD BE LIKE THOSE ON HIGH SCHOOL DRAMAS ON TV

i mean this is doing wonders for my own self-confidence regarding my looks but FOR REAL I CANNOT BE THE ONLY ONE TO NOTICE THIS

PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE ELSE HAS NOTICED THIS

Comments

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well, it's connected to really intense, strong emotions, right? And we both know what happens I feel intense, strong emotions???

[ hint hint, the panda! Not that she wants it revealed over the journal, hoping he understands... ]

[stillarhino]

hell yeah! thats the spirit
aint no reason to hide it if ya ask me
especially when it feels like its gonna make you all sick inside you know?

Sender: Zhao

[seemagicshit]

[Okay, this whole post made him laugh because it reminded him of himself when he was younger.]

I wouldn't say everyone is super-model hot, but given our population size, seems like there's a way higher percentage of hot people.

[angelbirth]

[ He does get it, although he kind of wants to tease her a bit and ask if it means she writes posts like this when she feels intense emotions. ]

That's right, but you can control it. You can feel emotions strongly, but as long as you're not overwhelmed by them, I think you'll be okay.

Take me for example. I'm the Avatar of Wrath. There is a burning anger inside my heart that I feel constantly, but I bet you wouldn't know I feel angry nearly all the time just by looking at me, right?

[ ...He hopes that's the case. He'd be quite upset if she said yep, you look like an angry guy, considering how much work he puts into appearing cool, calm and collected. ]

This place is fundamentally different than your world. Maybe it works the same right now, but I think with enough work, you can make it happen only when you want it or need it to. For the rest of the time, you can use it to use dreamotion energy.

Don't be afraid of your emotions, Mei.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well sometimes you have to hide things

just not this thing

sickness or no

[itsgunnabe_mei]

THANK YOU

FINALLY SOMEONE AGREES EVEN IF JUST A LITTLE BIT

[stillarhino]

that kinda thing just aint my style
tried that for a long time and i ended up snapping because of it

[seemagicshit]

So inquiring minds want to know. Anybody near your age that you think is the best?

Sender: Hans Westergaard

[sleightofhans]

[Hans might be chuckling a little before writing back. If anything, she's endlessly amusing.]

I'm certainly glad that no one has mistreated you so far, Mei. I would have very strong words with anyone that'd do so.

Regarding your second point, I'm afraid that I haven't quite noticed such a thing. I wouldn't worry about it, just continue being yourself.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well yeah that is surprising. you're like the least wrathful guy i've ever met!

i guess if a literal demon can control the emotion he's in charge of, i can't say i can't

[angelbirth]

I'm pleased to hear that.

[ Quite literally. He's beaming, even though she can't see it. ]

I suggest letting yourself feel your emotions in small doses. No matter how intense they are, just feel them. You'll get used to the feeling eventually, and so the thing that might trigger when you feel big emotions may not trigger after all, because those "big" emotions will feel normal and average to you.

[ He hopes. ]

But, since I'm already aware of it, we can still practice dreamotion together whenever you feel up for it. As long as you feel comfortable doing so. You should be able to use dreamotion energy regardless.

[startraveler]

Maybe you just need more practise?

I know what school is.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

oh dang i didn't mean to bring up anything bad or sad

should we do another rewind and delete?

[itsgunnabe_mei]

okay um problem is??? I don't think there's a lot of people my age! i've only met a handful of kids who MIGHT be my age, most of them girls

everyone else is like way older! like thirty!

[itsgunnabe_mei]

i want to learn how to do it! i want to be able to help everyone! the last times i tried helping out, i got a friend injured or just ran away

i don't want to do either of those things again

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well i certainly won't complain about talking to hot guys for practice

okay so!!! school dramas are just like, shows? based on what adults think high school is like. lots of drama and angst that never really happens but makes for good watching

[keystaff]

I am cute

That felt kind of weird. I guess I'm just not so used to it. Not that I'm not confident usually.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

[ gasp! Hans. And after she so rudely ditched him after he was flirting with her... a-are they dating now? Probably not, since she didn't reply to his affections... but she has to reply now! What does she say? What is she supposed to say?

Be cool! You need to be cool!!! ]

THANK YOU VERY MUCH HANS YOU ARE VERY GOOD

[ #nailedit ]

[itsgunnabe_mei]

there we go! that's much better! i'm very proud of you!!!

[keystaff]

You are? I guess I just don't necessarily see it because I see myself in the mirror all the time? Get self conscious about Tomoyo-chan's recordings and photos.

[angelbirth]

I see.

[ She's just a small human girl, so it makes sense that she'd get scared and run away. Not everyone can be brave, or immediately good with magic. Still, it's unfortunate that her attempt to help did result in getting someone hurt -- that can be a deterrent. ]

Something like that might happen again. But, we'll do our best to avoid that, right? If it happens, it happens, but we'll keep working on your dreamotion magic until you can confidently look danger in the face and safely defend yourself if needed. Or run -- sometimes running is the smart choice.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

That's totally normal! I have tons of photos and videos of my besties!

[itsgunnabe_mei]

alastor said something like that too

are you two best friends now or something?

[ One's the embodiment of the sin of Wrath with an addiction to fluff. The other is a deer-shaped radio junkie who eats people. Together they... fight crime! or not. ]

[angelbirth]

No.

[ He wants to say Alastor doesn't do friends, but he doesn't want to invalidate Alastor' friendship with Mei. That, and he himself often has trouble forging meaningful relationships. ]

I think Alastor would be offended by the very idea.

[recreator]

That does sound exceedingly inconvenient. Perhaps you might try imagining them as something else, something unlikely to have such an effect yet still capable of being spoken to. A creature perhaps.

As to the rest - who can say? In my experience there is no such thing as "bad guys" and "good guys". After all, one person's hero may be another person's villain. There is little difference between them in the end.

Suppose, for example, the only way for them to save their world is to endanger your own and all that you know. Would you still call them "good"?