~*~third entry*~

[itsgunnabe_mei]

Sender: Meilin Lee
To: Everyone
Subject: A Big Confession


Okay I'm not sure how to go about this, but I'd super appreciate it if everyone read this??? Because I have a super huge confession to make and it's important to me. And it'd probably explain a lot about how I've been acting since I'm pretty sure I've weirded a lot out of you out.

Guess the best way to start is with the backstory. So like a super long time ago, my ancestor Sun Yee lived in this village during war time, and all the men went off to fight. But that left the village kinda defenseless, y'know? She wanted to protect her daughters so she prayed to the gods for help. So the gods gave her the ability to turn into a gigantic red panda so she could fight off any invaders and protect her home. Because she really loved red pandas.

Now I know that sounds SUPER MADE UP but I promise it's real because that ability got passed down through the generations - which leads to me. Whenever I get super emotional about anything (happy, sad, angry, you name it) I turn into the Panda. Sometimes just a small trigger will set off parts of the Panda, like ears and tail - so if you've seen me try to head my head or my butt, uh, yeah, that's why. Now some of you may be asking why I've been hiding this because we've got literal animals and demons walking and talking around this world like it's no biggie.

IT IS A SUPER BIGGIE IN MY WORLD. Like, no one thinks gods and magic actually exist??? I sure didn't! No one told me about this "blessing" until it happened to me like a few weeks before I came here! And I freaked out and nearly destroyed my home and temple! I'm already a huge target for bullying at my school, this would be infinity times worse! There is this ritual to seal up the Panda but this place grabbed me before we could do it!

But this world is different. Yeah, obviously. But like... everyone's so nice? And understanding? Plus while the idea of a giant Red Panda sounds super silly, that form of mine is actually really strong, so it could help fight monsters here and stuff. So... I'm not going to try and hide it anymore. As long as I'm here, I'm going to try and embrace it a little more. So, I guess, that's everything.

Wait no one last thing - If my mom ever comes here please don't tell her about any of this! Okay now I'm done.

Comments

Sender: Mammon

[stupidmammon]

Huh. So it's a family thing then. I mean I knew humans ain't normally turn into giant cute animals an' stuff. But I thought it might be kinda rude to be like ey yo, I know you showed me your panda side but why you a panda yo.

It kinda makes sense that it's a family blessing/curse tho.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

I appreciate that big time, Mammon.

But yeah, apparently it happens in every generation and as far as I know, only happens to girls. Mom thought it would happen "later" so she didn't tell me until I already Panda'd several times.

[stupidmammon]

And with you at that age an' all that ain't gonna help with all the emotions and junk. Teenie years are like. The worst years for tiny humans. At least I think that's what they say anyway!

[itsgunnabe_mei]

you hit the nail on the head so hard you might as well be a handyman

i tried NOT feeling things and that didn't exactly work

[stupidmammon]

Thats cause tryin' not to feel things is like shakin' up a bottle of soda and then once the cap is taken off PSSSHHHHHHH! Emotions all over the place.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

And in a world where emotions are connected to magic? that's probably super worse

so I guess I'm trying to make sure that does not happen??? or at least there's less soda spilled everywhere

[stupidmammon]

Well. Ya know I have your back regardless. Emotional or not, this thing ain't gonna stop me from buggin' you. An' if it actually bothers anyone else? They were probably jerks anyway.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

see, that's kind of why i felt okay with telling everyone

there's, like, no jerks here

everyone here is super nice, it's amazing

[stupidmammon]

I don't know if I'd say there's no jerks here. I mean even if they don't seem like jerks at first, they could be hidin' it on the inside an' savin' it for a later time you know? But. Anyone who's a jerk to ya ain't worth it.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

has someone been a jerk to you mammon?

besides satan

[ because by now, she has an idea about this sibling dynamic. ]

[stupidmammon]

Me? Not really?? I mean other than Alastor bein' a pain in the butt, but that's just Alastor bein' alastor so it ain't like I'm mad or nothin.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

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[stupidmammon]

I dunno, I could do without him makin' his dumb lil shadows follow me.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

aw, he's looking out for you :3

[stupidmammon]

.... yeah. That's definitely one way to look at it I suppose.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

he's a good guy, he just has a weird way of showing he is!

[stupidmammon]

That's cause he actually likes you.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well duh :3

but i bet he likes you too!

[stupidmammon]

Likes to be a big pain in my





butt.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

you like him :3

[stupidmammon]

Ooooi you shut that mouth of yours!

The Great Mammon doesn't have any sappy feelings like that!

[itsgunnabe_mei]

i think the great mammon has great feelings :3