~*~third entry*~

[itsgunnabe_mei]

Sender: Meilin Lee
To: Everyone
Subject: A Big Confession


Okay I'm not sure how to go about this, but I'd super appreciate it if everyone read this??? Because I have a super huge confession to make and it's important to me. And it'd probably explain a lot about how I've been acting since I'm pretty sure I've weirded a lot out of you out.

Guess the best way to start is with the backstory. So like a super long time ago, my ancestor Sun Yee lived in this village during war time, and all the men went off to fight. But that left the village kinda defenseless, y'know? She wanted to protect her daughters so she prayed to the gods for help. So the gods gave her the ability to turn into a gigantic red panda so she could fight off any invaders and protect her home. Because she really loved red pandas.

Now I know that sounds SUPER MADE UP but I promise it's real because that ability got passed down through the generations - which leads to me. Whenever I get super emotional about anything (happy, sad, angry, you name it) I turn into the Panda. Sometimes just a small trigger will set off parts of the Panda, like ears and tail - so if you've seen me try to head my head or my butt, uh, yeah, that's why. Now some of you may be asking why I've been hiding this because we've got literal animals and demons walking and talking around this world like it's no biggie.

IT IS A SUPER BIGGIE IN MY WORLD. Like, no one thinks gods and magic actually exist??? I sure didn't! No one told me about this "blessing" until it happened to me like a few weeks before I came here! And I freaked out and nearly destroyed my home and temple! I'm already a huge target for bullying at my school, this would be infinity times worse! There is this ritual to seal up the Panda but this place grabbed me before we could do it!

But this world is different. Yeah, obviously. But like... everyone's so nice? And understanding? Plus while the idea of a giant Red Panda sounds super silly, that form of mine is actually really strong, so it could help fight monsters here and stuff. So... I'm not going to try and hide it anymore. As long as I'm here, I'm going to try and embrace it a little more. So, I guess, that's everything.

Wait no one last thing - If my mom ever comes here please don't tell her about any of this! Okay now I'm done.

Comments

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well no but

If the Panda can give comfort to someone, especially someone important to me, then maybe it's not as bad as I thought it was. I do want to help people.

[judicialassistant]

You already do, I promise. Though I can certainly understand your apprehension.

Perhaps you will even make new friends by embracing this part of you?

[itsgunnabe_mei]

if that's true, that'd be great! I'd never say no to more friends!

[judicialassistant]

Does this mean you may change your mind about performing the ritual to seal the Panda away?

[itsgunnabe_mei]

what? no!

i mean, this is here, and home is home! here, there are talking animals and weird dream things and transformations all over the place! But my world has none of that!

in some ways this place is better than home because of that. but I can't stay here.

[judicialassistant]

Ah. My apologies, I was only curious. My world doesn't have any of that either, but it is still my homeland and I wish to see it become a better place. I can't abandon it either. [ Any more than she could abandon it in favour of Great Britain. ]

[itsgunnabe_mei]

I think that's all anyone ever wants - to help their home and make it be better than it already is.

[judicialassistant]

That is why I wish to retain all the memories I've made here, with you and everyone else. But we don't always remember our dreams, do we.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

Even so, that's no reason not to keep making memories. I'm not going to stop anytime soon.

[judicialassistant]

I won't either.

[ Below that, a little smiley face starts to appear as Susato draws it. She probably could've just left it at that, but all the cutesy desserts she's been coming up with for the Wild Harvest have led her to have an... artistic spirit of sorts?

So she kind of just keeps going and. The end result looks something like a childish drawing of Mei's Panda form, complete with fluffy arms (probably too big) and ears, and dark stripes on the tail.

Well, she tried. ]

[itsgunnabe_mei]

[ Dawww. That's so cute! Mei giggles in her room, and in response, decides to draw a picture of Susato.

Her picture is also childish, with Susato's eyes being pretty huge and anime-sparkly, with some hearts and stars around her face as well. ]

[judicialassistant]

[ Oh no! Mei can't see her, but please know that Susato is affectionately chuckling. ]

You're quite good at this! When we see each other next, you will have to teach me. [ Or just be her model and pose. ]

[itsgunnabe_mei]

i'm really more self-taught, i mostly just copy what i can comy comic books and manga