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dreamcrystals2022-07-21 08:50 pm
flamekthunder) wrote in dreamcrystals2022-07-21 08:50 pm
Entry tags:
fifth entry ⊗ first dream: only in a dream
Sender: Eustace
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death makes for a sad ending to an otherwise happy dream (no violent acts but there is a lot of heavy grief)
Notes: A dream depicting glimpses of a lone wolf at various stages of his life and eventually forming his own family until...
[It's there that the dream will cut off as Eustace jolts awake.
Note: there will be some delay before Eustace responds but he'll at least be of...somewhat calm mind if a bit more reticent and giving shorter, curt answers. ]
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive Dream Recording
Warnings: Death makes for a sad ending to an otherwise happy dream (no violent acts but there is a lot of heavy grief)
Notes: A dream depicting glimpses of a lone wolf at various stages of his life and eventually forming his own family until...
It begins with a vast snowy white landscape, so empty and barren save for a few bundles of trees that appear here and there. Atop a barren cliff lays a lone silver gray wolf, its right eye slightly scarred at its brow as if it had been burned, but it's subtle, just barely noticeable under the tufts of fur. As the wolf slowly opens its eyes, the right eye is a little duller compared to the bright blue of the left. But it can see just as well and it tracks the sudden movement below—of other wolves crossing the snowy plains, a few of them playing around and running freely with each other. 
It seems warmer down there, welcoming...yet the lone wolf remains at his perch, turning his head away as ice forms around him.
Time passes and what was once a barren snowscape has changed, pockets of grass and more trees poking through the snow. The wolf is now on the ground watching the others play around, but while he keeps his distance every so often one approaches to shove its head against his side, as if pushing the wolf to the group. The wolf grumbles, pinning his ears and baring his fangs...but he never attacks. Instead two smaller ones appear, one with blue tinted fur and another and orange red, and it's with their help that the lone wolf moves and is brought into the fold. There other wolves run out to greet him, each with their own distinct markings. The lone wolf still doesn't really participate, but he stays within the group, watching...and slowly his tail sways from one side to the other.
Like stop motion the trees grow, the grass spreads, and the number of wolves grow. The once lone wolf still doesn't really participate with their antics, but he appears calmer and more relaxed. He mostly stays on the edge, but he wanders through to be with the others, even letting the younger ones "tussle" with him. The cliff he once inhabited has turned into a mossy green and he hasn't returned to it in a long while. But when he looks out, there's a new wolf beyond the pack—black, female, with deep red eyes. He's wary at first, but she's welcomed into the fold like everyone else who has come through. When she passes by him, his eyes follow her, the scent of flowers lingering.
Once more time passes and the scenes pass quickly, all focused on the black wolf. Of her bothering the gray wolf and sticking to his side. Of her crying and he comforting her. Of him chasing and cornering her. Of quiet moments of them together. With each one, more snow disappears and the feeling of spring grows with the warm atmosphere, and his voice whispers in the breeze as each snapshot passes through.
The two wolves race through the snow, a black and silver blur leaving flowers in their wake.
Around their necks are matching necklaces: a metal dog tag and glowing charm, the moon on the black wolf and a star on the gray. They continue into the forest of trees, through a flower field bursting with colors—the sunlight dancing over them as petals swirl around them as the two wolves continue to frolic and play with each other, the remaining ice that had once surrounded the gray wolf completely melted away. Eventually they stop to rest against each other, and as he looks over at his mate, his blue eyes shine in a way they never have before. Soft, gentle, completely in love. Slowly they close, wrapped up in that beautiful bliss...
...And when they open, he finds himself staring at two small pairs of eyes, one red, one blue, their coats a darker gray. The pups' tails wag eagerly in the air as they bark.
At first he's confused—
Who's dad?? But he hears the soft laugh and as he's shoved over onto the side by the pups, he looks over to see the black wolf sitting nearby with a smile, her red eyes shining in delight.
Understanding crashes into him like a tidal wave, and while something in the back of his mind tries to warn him, there's a burst of light, the ground overflowing with flowers as he laughs and plays with the pups. His pups.
His family.
Things go by in a blur. Spending lazy days together, meeting and venturing with the original pack. It seems as if it all could end peacefully like this. ...But then there's a low rumble overhead, dark shadows overtaking the once sunny area. As lightning cracks high overhead as if to shatter the once picturesque sky, the pups whine and hide beneath his legs. It's just a storm and yet there's a chill in the air that causes every single hair to stand on end. One that makes them run, run before the darkness engulfs them, run to their home where they would be safe. But—
—the thought blares through his mind as they dash into the cave and everything goes dark.
Rain falls. It beats on the gray wolf who sits with his head hung low, his once vibrant blue eyes dull and lifeless, tears now ice frozen on his fur. In fact there's no color at all—it's all white, gray, and black. In front of him is the black wolf lying on her side, eyes closed. A dark pool spreads beneath her lifeless body, flecks of red breaking through the monochrome. Her necklace lies in shattered pieces, the beautiful glowing moon crushed, dull. Beside him the pups whine and try to move him, but he doesn't budge. He can't. The weight of loss chains him down—
Slowly he falls forward, his head landing lightly just above hers. As the rain turns to the snow, ice crackles and forms around him. At first he still hears the pups, but when he slowly cranes his neck he can see them fade away, disappearing into the ether. Because they were never real to begin with.
They never can be real, a dark voice whispers as the snow continues to slowly bury him. None of this is.
No longer is he a wolf, but Eustace cradling Tifa's lifeless body as it slowly disappears, the snow and ice almost completely covering him as the voice becomes heavier and more oppressive as it continues.
When you wake up, you will forget it all like you did before. When she wakes up she will leave you for another.
A dream. This is all just a dream.
All it ever will be.
It seems warmer down there, welcoming...yet the lone wolf remains at his perch, turning his head away as ice forms around him.Time passes and what was once a barren snowscape has changed, pockets of grass and more trees poking through the snow. The wolf is now on the ground watching the others play around, but while he keeps his distance every so often one approaches to shove its head against his side, as if pushing the wolf to the group. The wolf grumbles, pinning his ears and baring his fangs...but he never attacks. Instead two smaller ones appear, one with blue tinted fur and another and orange red, and it's with their help that the lone wolf moves and is brought into the fold. There other wolves run out to greet him, each with their own distinct markings. The lone wolf still doesn't really participate, but he stays within the group, watching...and slowly his tail sways from one side to the other.
Like stop motion the trees grow, the grass spreads, and the number of wolves grow. The once lone wolf still doesn't really participate with their antics, but he appears calmer and more relaxed. He mostly stays on the edge, but he wanders through to be with the others, even letting the younger ones "tussle" with him. The cliff he once inhabited has turned into a mossy green and he hasn't returned to it in a long while. But when he looks out, there's a new wolf beyond the pack—black, female, with deep red eyes. He's wary at first, but she's welcomed into the fold like everyone else who has come through. When she passes by him, his eyes follow her, the scent of flowers lingering.
Once more time passes and the scenes pass quickly, all focused on the black wolf. Of her bothering the gray wolf and sticking to his side. Of her crying and he comforting her. Of him chasing and cornering her. Of quiet moments of them together. With each one, more snow disappears and the feeling of spring grows with the warm atmosphere, and his voice whispers in the breeze as each snapshot passes through.
Tifa, you are my partner now, and I want you to be there in my future. I told you before... You are the one I chose to be my partner for life. The one I chose to give my heart and soul to. No one else.
Tifa Lockhart.
The two wolves race through the snow, a black and silver blur leaving flowers in their wake.
Will you marry me?
Around their necks are matching necklaces: a metal dog tag and glowing charm, the moon on the black wolf and a star on the gray. They continue into the forest of trees, through a flower field bursting with colors—the sunlight dancing over them as petals swirl around them as the two wolves continue to frolic and play with each other, the remaining ice that had once surrounded the gray wolf completely melted away. Eventually they stop to rest against each other, and as he looks over at his mate, his blue eyes shine in a way they never have before. Soft, gentle, completely in love. Slowly they close, wrapped up in that beautiful bliss......And when they open, he finds himself staring at two small pairs of eyes, one red, one blue, their coats a darker gray. The pups' tails wag eagerly in the air as they bark.
Dad!
Yay he's awake!
Play with us!
At first he's confused—
Dad?
Who's dad?? But he hears the soft laugh and as he's shoved over onto the side by the pups, he looks over to see the black wolf sitting nearby with a smile, her red eyes shining in delight.
Understanding crashes into him like a tidal wave, and while something in the back of his mind tries to warn him, there's a burst of light, the ground overflowing with flowers as he laughs and plays with the pups. His pups. His family.
Things go by in a blur. Spending lazy days together, meeting and venturing with the original pack. It seems as if it all could end peacefully like this. ...But then there's a low rumble overhead, dark shadows overtaking the once sunny area. As lightning cracks high overhead as if to shatter the once picturesque sky, the pups whine and hide beneath his legs. It's just a storm and yet there's a chill in the air that causes every single hair to stand on end. One that makes them run, run before the darkness engulfs them, run to their home where they would be safe. But—
Where is she?
—the thought blares through his mind as they dash into the cave and everything goes dark.
Rain falls. It beats on the gray wolf who sits with his head hung low, his once vibrant blue eyes dull and lifeless, tears now ice frozen on his fur. In fact there's no color at all—it's all white, gray, and black. In front of him is the black wolf lying on her side, eyes closed. A dark pool spreads beneath her lifeless body, flecks of red breaking through the monochrome. Her necklace lies in shattered pieces, the beautiful glowing moon crushed, dull. Beside him the pups whine and try to move him, but he doesn't budge. He can't. The weight of loss chains him down—
I failed.
I failed to protect her...
I killed her.
Slowly he falls forward, his head landing lightly just above hers. As the rain turns to the snow, ice crackles and forms around him. At first he still hears the pups, but when he slowly cranes his neck he can see them fade away, disappearing into the ether. Because they were never real to begin with.
They never can be real, a dark voice whispers as the snow continues to slowly bury him. None of this is.
No longer is he a wolf, but Eustace cradling Tifa's lifeless body as it slowly disappears, the snow and ice almost completely covering him as the voice becomes heavier and more oppressive as it continues.
When you wake up, you will forget it all like you did before. When she wakes up she will leave you for another.
A dream. This is all just a dream.
All it ever will be.
[It's there that the dream will cut off as Eustace jolts awake.
Note: there will be some delay before Eustace responds but he'll at least be of...somewhat calm mind if a bit more reticent and giving shorter, curt answers. ]
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Me?
[...It's true his roots are in snow and winter, and he still prefers it over this summer heat. His hair is white... This isn't some reflection of his (albeit nowadays less) icy personality is it—]
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Yes, you.
[Tifa's face flushes with a colour that's deep and obvious enough that he can likely see it through the dimmer lights.]
Snowfalls are... calm. Quiet... Soft. [She begins carefully.] I could watch them all day back in Nibelheim when I was growing up. The first snowfalls were always my favourite... But then there were the days when it stormed, and the snow would bat at the windows. It would remind me of how strong and resilient it was. Even dangerous, sometimes.
[Her thumb rolls lightly over his cheek.]
But in the end... no matter how cold the snow is, if you're brave enough to reach out and touch it, it just... melts away.
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You and I are like the winter seasons. We're colder natured, more closed off. We can survive and do what we need to do so, and we will allow those we want in when want them. We can still feel warmth and can go along "fine" and be content with what we have without wanting more because do not "need" it.
However, when I met Tifa, I could feel all the walls I had built thaw and for the first time I understood what it really meant to open up and love someone. She became my spring and took me with her.
Just as she thinks of him with snow, he's reminded of her whenever he feels the warm sun, the fresh flowers, the brilliant lights. A heated strength that can scorch through anything while also providing pleasant comfort. A free spirit if left to run wildly that can be held in check with just enough cooling force, but it can also be fleeting and extinguished if burdened too much.
Really...they truly are quite balanced with how they are, and he leans into her touch, eyes soft as freshly fallen snow.]
If you think of me like snow... Then it's only fitting that you are like the sun to do exactly that.
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So, when he compares her to the sun, she can't help but laugh a little. It's a soft, happy, tender sound that glides out on a breath as she drops her forehead to meet his.]
I guess we really are perfect for each other.
[Not that there was any question in her mind about it, but there are always moments like this that remind her that it's true.]
... So, winter it is then?
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[A quiet smile that accompanies his soft quiet hum.]
That would make it... The last month. December. Better to make it early, before all the holiday mess later on.
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[Tifa slips her hands away to fold them between her knees, but she curls her body near his, seeking his warmth even as the sun's rays have started to kiss her skin. There's a reminiscent hum of her own in return, but it transforms into a giggle when she remembers how the last holiday went down for them. Back then, it had been so tense and awkward, but have they finally reached the point where they can look to it and laugh?
It had been the month when they had shared their very first kiss in this world, although the things that lead up to it were less than ideal, she still counts it as one, and will never forget it. And then...]
What, you don't want to get stuck in a giftbox with me again? Could make for an interesting wedding.
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No.
[With an equally flat answer as he nudges her. Though as he considers how it went...
.....
.........
A slight smirk plays on his lips as he leans close.]
Though I won't mind unwrapping you later.
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You never were one to wait.
[This impatient wolf.
Although she's no better.]no subject
You get quite impatient as well.
[
Calling her out.]no subject
Well, when you do things like this... Can you...
[But Tifa doesn't finish the thought, instead cutting herself off with a nervous laugh.]
[why are they like this]
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...Should we head down?
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... Are you feeling better?
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...Yes.
[And he's not covering it up or pushing himself.]
I can't say it's completely gone from my mind, but this isn't something I should let it weigh on us. [Just a bad a dream.] What about you?
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Better.
[And that isn't entirely a lie. While Tifa still feels her worry for him weighing down on her, she won't let it drown her too much if he's feeling better. Like him, she doesn't think it will ever completely go away, and that's just something that they'll both have to learn to accept. One day, maybe... they'll be able to forget all of this and continue to live in peace, but for now, she can't—she won't allow it to take away the happier moments like this one.
She wants to focus on this. What they have right now... in this moment, so she nuzzles her nose into the crook of his neck.]
Let's stay up here just a little longer...
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...All right.
[As long as he can be with her... It doesn't matter where they are.]
🎀
Those nightmares be damned, what they have now is so much better than that. They may have woken up in a start this morning, and have seen some things they'd rather not, but the moments like this seem to wash it all away, even if it's for a little while.]
We're going to be okay... I promise...
[The vow is murmured into his hair as she peppers his skin with kisses, and her arms squeeze him tight. And as they watch the sunrise together, and bathe in its crisp morning glow, she can really, truly believe that they will be. It's something. It's something she can hold onto until it's time for them to return and face reality...]