~*~second entry~*~

[itsgunnabe_mei]

Sender: Mei Lee
To: Everyone
Subject: An Observation???

okay so i've been here a while now and i've noticed something

i don't know the exact process of how the gods or people or whatever here pick people to help out

i don't know if it's completely random or an intricate process to determine who helps out but lately i've been leaning towards the latter for two reasons

one, i haven't met a single jerk or bully or even rude person here which is legit amazing and awesome BUT

SECOND

IS IT JUST MY IMAGINATION OR IS EVERYONE HERE LIKE INSANELY RIDICIOUSLY GOOD LOOKING

REALLY THO

ALL THE ADULTS COULD BE SUPER-MODELS AND ALL THE KIDS COULD BE LIKE THOSE ON HIGH SCHOOL DRAMAS ON TV

i mean this is doing wonders for my own self-confidence regarding my looks but FOR REAL I CANNOT BE THE ONLY ONE TO NOTICE THIS

PLEASE TELL ME SOMEONE ELSE HAS NOTICED THIS

Comments

[angelbirth]

[ TRAITOR. ]

Are you sure? My brothers say I'm a very strict tutor.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

[ listen she gets to help mammon tease, satan gets furry hugs, everybody wins ]

I wouldn't want anything less! don't show me any mercy!

[angelbirth]

Excellent. That's my favorite kind of teaching style.

[ ...Hopefully Mei doesn't regret her choice here. ]

I'll show you the basics that will help you with any branch of magic. What have you been able to do with your dreamotion energy so far?

[ Since it doesn't sound like her panda form is part of it. ]

[itsgunnabe_mei]

[ she's got an Education Mama, she knows no fear. ]

technically nothing

i've been kind of afraid to use it

[angelbirth]

[ In all fairness, his brothers don't exactly have a drive to better their education. ]

I see.

Is there any particular reason?

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well, it's connected to really intense, strong emotions, right? And we both know what happens I feel intense, strong emotions???

[ hint hint, the panda! Not that she wants it revealed over the journal, hoping he understands... ]

[angelbirth]

[ He does get it, although he kind of wants to tease her a bit and ask if it means she writes posts like this when she feels intense emotions. ]

That's right, but you can control it. You can feel emotions strongly, but as long as you're not overwhelmed by them, I think you'll be okay.

Take me for example. I'm the Avatar of Wrath. There is a burning anger inside my heart that I feel constantly, but I bet you wouldn't know I feel angry nearly all the time just by looking at me, right?

[ ...He hopes that's the case. He'd be quite upset if she said yep, you look like an angry guy, considering how much work he puts into appearing cool, calm and collected. ]

This place is fundamentally different than your world. Maybe it works the same right now, but I think with enough work, you can make it happen only when you want it or need it to. For the rest of the time, you can use it to use dreamotion energy.

Don't be afraid of your emotions, Mei.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well yeah that is surprising. you're like the least wrathful guy i've ever met!

i guess if a literal demon can control the emotion he's in charge of, i can't say i can't

[angelbirth]

I'm pleased to hear that.

[ Quite literally. He's beaming, even though she can't see it. ]

I suggest letting yourself feel your emotions in small doses. No matter how intense they are, just feel them. You'll get used to the feeling eventually, and so the thing that might trigger when you feel big emotions may not trigger after all, because those "big" emotions will feel normal and average to you.

[ He hopes. ]

But, since I'm already aware of it, we can still practice dreamotion together whenever you feel up for it. As long as you feel comfortable doing so. You should be able to use dreamotion energy regardless.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

i want to learn how to do it! i want to be able to help everyone! the last times i tried helping out, i got a friend injured or just ran away

i don't want to do either of those things again

[angelbirth]

I see.

[ She's just a small human girl, so it makes sense that she'd get scared and run away. Not everyone can be brave, or immediately good with magic. Still, it's unfortunate that her attempt to help did result in getting someone hurt -- that can be a deterrent. ]

Something like that might happen again. But, we'll do our best to avoid that, right? If it happens, it happens, but we'll keep working on your dreamotion magic until you can confidently look danger in the face and safely defend yourself if needed. Or run -- sometimes running is the smart choice.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

alastor said something like that too

are you two best friends now or something?

[ One's the embodiment of the sin of Wrath with an addiction to fluff. The other is a deer-shaped radio junkie who eats people. Together they... fight crime! or not. ]

[angelbirth]

No.

[ He wants to say Alastor doesn't do friends, but he doesn't want to invalidate Alastor' friendship with Mei. That, and he himself often has trouble forging meaningful relationships. ]

I think Alastor would be offended by the very idea.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

cause he's a big old TSUNDERE, right? :3 :3 :3

[angelbirth]

Perhaps. Although I think it's because we both come from the same place, just different versions of it. I get the impression that he thinks I'm weak, despite my rank as a demon, and that Alastor doesn't make friends with "weak demons."

He doesn't seem to mind making friends with humans, though. Lucky you.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

well I'm not a weak human! we just have to prove him wrong about you and me, right? there's so much more I can handle, and so much more you can do!

[angelbirth]

[ It's very difficult to refrain from insisting that she is, indeed, a weak human... but he manages. Barely. ]

How old are you, anyway? Thirteen? Fourteen? Most humans that age can't manage as much as you do, I can tell you that. In fact, most humans your age don't even like school, but here you are trying to put together a school so everyone can further their education.

Maybe with enough effort we can change Alastor's mind about you, but I don't see that happening for his opinion about me. Which, to be quite honest, is fine with me.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

13! And I'm very advanced for my age, I'm in a ton of AP and honors courses. I've got a lot of trophies from competitions, and my tests at always covered in A+s.

In other words, i'm not like most humans ;)

[angelbirth]

Wow.

Have you ever even gotten a B+ in your life? Or an A-?

[itsgunnabe_mei]

i try not to think about those times

[angelbirth]

Ah, so they did happen. It's okay. It happens to the best of us. What happened when you didn't get an A+?

[ He's assuming a week huddled under the blanket in sadness, but you know. ]

[itsgunnabe_mei]

find as much extra credit as I can to try and convince the teacher I can do better! then promise my mom it won't happen again!

[angelbirth]

Got it.

[ So she gets the good grades not necessarily for herself, but for her mother... and her teachers. What a people pleaser. ]

Just so we're clear, there will be no grades when we practice dreamotion magic. You're almost certainly going to fail at first, but you'll get there eventually. I won't maintain a gradebook for you.

[itsgunnabe_mei]

[ you can almost hear the sound of hard brakes being slammed in her brain ]

wait wait wait

how else are we supposed to tell if i'm doing it right???? how else are we supposed to keep track of my progress?????

[angelbirth]

You either do or you don't. If you don't produce dreamotion magic, then it's a failure. But dreamotion is used in a variety of ways. You can create things with it, move objects, change appearances, etc.

I'm a demon, so I have a fantastic sense when it comes to magic. Even if it's the tiniest droplet of magic, I'll know. Since the goal is to get you utilizing dreamotion energy, anything you produce will be considered a success.

You'll just have to take my word on whether you're progressing or plateauing.