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Futaba Sakura | 佐倉 双葉 | Oracle ([personal profile] mwehehe) wrote in [community profile] dreamcrystals2022-10-02 12:36 am

🛸 2 // JOURNAL ENTRY

Sender: Futaba Sakura
To: Everyone
Subject: Question


You ever just.

Lock yourself in your room for like a month and forget what time is? I mean, I guess I ate at least, and I didn't just fall asleep for a whole freakin' month like after the Medjed thing but

like

a whole. Month. Least it was fruitful.

Which uh, leads me to my actual question: who has some technology here with 'em? Phones, laptops, things that require a power source cause I think I figured out some dream crystal things, but it might require a more... ambient dream energy. Dunno how THAT is gonna be harnessed yet, but I need to know my many sleepless nights and curryless days weren't for nothing. Testing on my own stuff is fine, but knowing it's not just a fluke is even better.
herewardbound: (ponder)

[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-03 12:24 pm (UTC)(link)
SHIT

No. This was fine. This was fine. He could have this incredibly uncomfortable discussion. He needed to have this discussion.

He drew in another breath, and replied.

It's been dead for months and there's nothing on there you don't already know about.

A pause.

Nothing that could somehow make your opinion of me worse, anyway. I can be there in an hour?
herewardbound: (ponder)

[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-05 11:13 am (UTC)(link)
Unfortunately, that was the first thing I checked. Every time it's 'Unable to navigate to destination', no matter what it was. Even Palaces I knew for a fact still existed.

And, after a moment's reflection, he added, Probably... not all that much worse than not having left mine for two weeks.

And that was that, commitment made. He was going to do this. Talk... to Futaba. Without anyone else present.

This was probably going to be the second-hardest thing he'd ever done- nothing had ever been harder than the walk away from the police station last november- but this... felt more right than anything else he'd done had.

Take-out curry was a poor offering, probably. So was the rice and naan it came with. But it was something.

So it was, at three in the afternoon, Goro Akechi found himself waiting outside an unfamiliar treehouse, trying to work himself up to the arduous task of knocking on the damn door.

No. No, this was a stupid idea. He set the take-out on the step and started walking, pulling out his book. Something came up, need to cancel, you understand, he thought, and almost wrote it, the tip of his pen poised mere millimeters from paper.

What he wrote instead was I'm outside.
Edited 2022-10-05 17:38 (UTC)
herewardbound: (ponder)

[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-06 12:00 pm (UTC)(link)
In her defense- he didn't look that much better. He did, however, take the offered seat... and wordlessly offered his (thoroughly dead) phone.

"To be totally honest with you, I don't. I really... really don't want to do this. But I... feel like I need to." No, that was a stupid way to start. Why was this so damn difficult- "When you- In the engine room. You said it's never too late to start over. Did you genuinely mean that, or were you just trying to talk me down?"
herewardbound: (ponder)

[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-07 12:02 pm (UTC)(link)
He listened quietly, for a moment, staring at the floor. "All of you?" That didn't make any damn sense. After what he'd done, to Futaba and Haru in particular... But then, they weren't stupid, were they? "You're... not wrong. I was too stupid to admit it, but you're right."

He inhaled. "I'm not... sure if you heard what happened. But some shit happened on the tenth, and I met... well. I suppose you could call it my Shadow. It knew... everything. Everything I'd been lying to myself about. Everything I'd been too scared or proud to admit. I think I've realized for the first time how... little. Control I've ever had over my life. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of... letting other people decide who I am."

Beneath the surface, a sense of warmth he now had a name for welled up- Captain Nemo, comfortably there like he'd always been, somehow, without the discomfort or vitriol he'd come to get used to...

"I'm not going to apologize. What would 'I'm sorry' actually accomplish? But I do... wish I hadn't-"

No. Not the right words. "No child should have to lose their parents. It was stupid, and it was wrong, and all of it- all of it was part of this- this half-baked plan I came up with when I was fourteen that was never going to work in the first place and Shido knew. He knew the whole time and I let him- I let him make me just like him. And I'm done. This is me, starting over. I don't want to be- I am not. Him."
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[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-12 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
He was silent, for several seconds, listening as she spoke... and nodded. "If you're serious about that... then it's a deal."

Something in the back of his mind burned, and the sense he'd gotten a few times before, here, flared to life-

Like something he'd been missing. Something that had been lost. The ghost of a voice he could barely remember whispering-

I am thou, thou art I...
Justice.

It hurt, because while he knew he'd been played, left to be a pawn in a game he never could've understood, there'd still been a choice, somewhere along the line, to chase Shido's shadow instead of his own way. That starting on that path had been a mistake to begin with, and everything else, whether he'd had a choice in it or not- had followed from that. It hurt... but that didn't have to be a bad thing.

"While we're on this... train wreck of a conversation, anything you'd like to get out of your system? I'm offering a one-time promise of no payback if you'd like to take a swing, say something to twist the knife, or whatever. Nobody would argue I hadn't earned it."
herewardbound: (ponder)

[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-13 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
He nodded, quietly. That was... fair. "You don't have to explain yourself to me. I get it."

He inhaled. "My mother... Shido made her life hell. Not directly- he never cared enough to try to do it directly. But... in all the ways that matter, he killed her. Even if he came to me on hands and knees, if he admitted all of it, begged for forgiveness, swore to be a better man- I couldn't forgive him. So... I get it. I-"

He stumbled, over his words. There was a lot to be said. A lot that could be said, and some things he found himself wanting to say, but...
"I'll leave you alone."
herewardbound: (closest thing to a real smile your ass i)

[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-17 01:49 pm (UTC)(link)
He laughed, but it was a wet, half-choked sound. "Are you sure about that? I'm... really bad at it."

Possibly the understatement of the year.
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[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-24 01:19 pm (UTC)(link)
He actually snorted. "Oh, what else could you possibly dig up? A fake-ass food blog and a handful of texts? I'll come back and get it when you're done."
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[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-10-24 01:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"Don't remind me. It was something one of Shido's publicists recommended. Standard idol culture bullshit, maintain a social media presence, cultivate an image of liking trendy cafes and crap like that." He made a face. "I never would've posted about Leblanc. I actually fucking liked Leblanc."

Though the idea gave him pause. "Although... now I do somewhat regret it. Can you imagine the average 'Detective Prince' fangirl trying to order that kind of basic bitch drink? From your father? It might almost have been worth getting myself kicked out."
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[personal profile] herewardbound 2022-11-04 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't get it! If you're going to order coffee, order coffee. If you don't like coffee, order hot chocolate, or tea, or something. Your half-caf soy half-ristretto misto with three vanilla pumps is holding up the fucking line and I have a train to catch in twenty minutes! Who the hell does that?!"