dreamcrystals | [02] three lies, one truth

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[02] three lies, one truth

Sender: Susato Mikotoba
To: Everyone
Subject: Passive dream recording
Warning: Descriptions of death (specifically: falling/burning, stabbing, freezing, drowning) and the crippling fear that comes with that.

When Susato is first seen, she is nigh unrecognizable. There's only a glimpse of her. Her hair is frazzled, long well past her shoulders, and the white dress she wears, accented by pinks, does not match the grim darkness of the cage she is in. Seconds later, there's a loud metallic clang as the cage is shut.

There's movement like a shaky camera, and you... no, Susato is looking into the eyes of one man who looks almost surprised to see her. As if he hadn't been the one to put her there.

"Mr Vigil?"

The voice is small and cracks like glass over the flames below.

Before he can respond, there's the sound of a lever and a deafening scream as a feeling of terrifying weightlessness takes over your body.

You're falling, and you don't know when you'll stop.

* * * * *
Out of the frying pan and into the fire.

When the dream spits you out, you can taste a mixture of blood and dirt as you blink your eyes open. They sting like you've been crying, and when you bring your filthy hands up to look at them, you can see the pink of your kimono sleeves. The loops in your air feel looser and messier than usual as you can feel the terrifying glare of a man before you, bleeding and in chains, and yet no less threatening.

All around you are corpses. You just barely manage to struggle to your feet when he moves to strike you down with alarming quickness, his blade and scythe at his call. Something hard and sharp pierces your stomach as his voice booms:

"You will not tarnish... my brother's memory...!"

You were so close. You can see some of the broken chains you worked so hard at; he was almost free.

But it's too late.

A laughter seems to be coming from the noble in the portrait behind the Reaper, and an eerie red glow bleeds out from the canvas as your consciousness fades.

* * * * *

The laughter transforms into something else, another voice. It is almost pleasant; and the scene is entirely different now. A gorgeous ballroom surrounds you with an air of celebration, you are humbled, taking the man before you in a dance. Here is the face that everyone says you can trust, and yet you can hear suspicious whispers coming from the walls.

Something is wrong.

You feel cold in a way that is inexplicable. Your very core is frozen, and it feels like you will never get warm. suddenly it's a struggle just to move with the music; but eventually you stop listening to that, too.

"Don't struggle." The king pulls you close in what is most certainly a threatening manner. Beneath your gloves, your fingers have already become ice. "Your death is inevitable now. Accept it with grace, and don't scream."

But even if you wanted to, you can't.

Pathetic gurgles escape your throat as ice travels up your chest and your neck. A piece of your white hair falls across your face, but when you go to brush it away, your hands won't move. Nothing will.

There is stillness. For a moment, you have hope, because you can still move your terrified, wide eyes, but soon that too is gone.

* * * * *
In that moment, you're not able to look at anything else.

Your neck is craned upwards and suddenly, the dream has shifted one final time. You're staring at the surface of the freezing cold water from below, unable to breathe, but the Gods above have mercy on you, and it doesn't last long. A glaring white starts to creep into the corners of your vision, filling everything in haze, and the dream ends as suddenly as it began.

* * * * *

[ Back in the comparative comforts of her home, Susato awakes with a start. She gasps for breath like she's just been held underwater, sitting up and gripping at her blankets. For all she knows, they are her lifeline. She is shaking, the faded memories of dreamscapes past rushing back to her, and she feels her arm knock something off the bed she's on.

......All she can do is breathe. ]

(( ooc: tl;dr, just a fun throwback to the fun deaths i've been able to put her through this past year. <3 please assume delayed responses where appropriate/etc. ))

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[When he can feel her start to relax, he moves a hand and slowly begins to rub her back. And she hold onto him for as long as she likes. He's the last person to judge. He lets out some air he apparently had been holding when he finally hears her voice, however small.]

Would you like me to prepare some tea for you...? [He isn't sure whether he should break into what happened just yet.]

[ Susato's grip seems to tighten without meaning to in apparent protest to him leaving; but after thinking on it for a little longer, tea sounds... really good. She bites her lip, and then starts to loosen her hold. Her weight shifts, and with it, there is the sound of skin sliding across the blankets and covers. ]

I'll come with you.

[ Though as she throws her feet over the edge of the bed, she is realizing how dark it still is outside. It feels like she's slept the whole day away in a dream that lasted forever...

What time is it? ]

[His hand falls onto her hand when he felt that grip.]

Of course you're coming with me. [Did she really think he was going to leave her? He leans into her slightly, hoping it'll keep her steady.] Would you like me to carry you...? [He feels like she'll just say no, but...well, he just wants her to feel safe.]

[ The truth is she is tempted to say yes. The question brings back a pleasant memory, of a time when he wouldn't have bothered to ask, and she actually manages a distant smile as they stand. She keeps pace with him and does appear to steady as they approach the door. ]

I wouldn't ask that of you. [ How silly. He knows her.

...... ]

I'm sorry I interrupted your sleep.

I don't mind. [Be nice to yourself, Susato. He'll at least support her with his arm is around her waist as they move.]

Don't worry about me. How are you feeling?

[ Of course he doesn't mind...

She doesn't know how to feel about that. A part of her feels like he should be angry, and she finds her gaze falling to the ground as they walk. She can feel her feet dragging, so she makes an effort to keep pace until she can recognize the kitchen tiles. ]

Like...

[ I don't know. Kazuma deserves more than that, though. ]

Like...I don't know whether if I've actually slept at all.

[Being mad isn't going to help the situation. He's more frustrated than anything, that he wasn't fully aware of what Susato had been going through. His pace slows along with her.]

You've had these...thoughts for a while?

Hm? [ There's an innocent questioning look as she notices their pace slowing. She's looked back up at him, slightly more alert. ] Oh, I... I don't know if I would say that. I was certain I'd put those awful nightmares behind me. And yet...

[ Her failure regarding Lord van Zieks, her failure to see Hans for what he truly is. She hadn't thought about them for a while, nor has she given much thought to Mr Vigil since his disappearance. ]

Sometimes I forget that dreamwalking can be dangerous.

A naive mistake. [Must be nice to be so nonchalant about dreamwalking. But he is not here to scold her. That wouldn't help anyone. He looks down at her, practically stopping at this point.]

There are some things you'll experience, good and bad, that will leave a mark in your life. And some of those marks, will leave scars that will never fully go away. Experiencing death is one of them.

[ Susato stops when Kazuma does, and she can feel his gaze, but is unable to meet it. He's not here to scold her, yet it feels like he did. She can almost feel the ground wavering beneath her feet, but unfortunately, it does not open up to swallow her whole. She lets out a shaky breath, listening to his every word, and her hand will feel colder for a moment before she lets go of him.

She brings up her hand to stare at it, turning it over. ]

Does that make me ugly as well as naive?

[He would like to refute her, cause to him, she was beautiful. His light. But the reality of it all that he's come to learn...]

There's an ugliness in everyone. [He reaches for her hand, trying to hold it in both of his.] But that doesn't change how I feel about you. I'm more worried than anything.

[ The reassurance probably makes her feel better than she'd care to admit. Something she might not have even known she needed. She allows his hands to take hers again, making an effort to squeeze him back. ]

Mm. Well... there is no need for that. I promise that this 'ugliness,' or whatever we've decided to call it, will not haunt me. Nor will yours ever change how I feel about you.

[ She will return the favor, giving him that reassurance in return. ]

Sometimes it just... rises to the surface rather suddenly. Isn't that so?

...It does. Which making such promises like that, may not come to fruition. So, rather than make a promise... [He gently pulls her along, as they near a chair she could sit in. A moment to take in some air, before he looks her in the eyes.]

I'll say what you've always told me. I'm here for you, and you don't need to go through this alone.

[ Before she even notices, she finds herself in the chair. It is an ordinary chair, with nothing special about it, yet he makes it feel like a throne. She fidgets, eager to keep busy, but takes a deep breath to allow him to care for her the way she cared for him.

Because... that is how relationships work.

...She is not alone. ]

I know. Thank you.

[ ...... ]

I did not intend to keep any secrets.

[He'll keep to her side, rubbing her hand for a moment. He said he would make her tea, but he's hesitant to let her go just yet.]

You did not wish to burden me?

[ Her gaze naturally shifts, though it is out of thought rather than any need to avoid him. She catches sight of the cabinet where they keep their tea and wonders if a task to focus on would help settle her nerves, but the gentle rubbing motions at her hand seem to help for the moment.

She nods. ]

I didn't know how, or whether it would even be appropriate to come to you after every nightmare. Then, eventually... I let the memories fade.

...Well, they haven't really left, have they? [He puts his hand on her hand, giving her gentle headpats and finally, letting her go so he can prepare the tea. Maybe some of the tea he had gifted her might help. He keeps himself in her view while he works.]

Did all those actually happen to you, in some form or another...? [Did she actually die?]

[ Susato watches, unable to argue the point. She does remember his thoughtful gift, too, right around the time rummages and finds the box. Eagerness tugs at her, and her hands itch to be doing what he is doing, but she ignores it.

Only a mild fidgeting results. Idle motions as she scratches a spot on her arm. ]

At the time, I think Mr Vigil felt responsible because it happened. In the dreamscape he created...

...Do you think that counts as "some form"?

[He's occasionally glancing in her direction, making sure she's doing ok and also not trying to help. He'll return to her side once the pot has been set on the stove, waiting for it to boil.]

I meant if you actually experience what happened at the end of those nightmares. Or are they fantasies created from your mind? [He looks to where she was scratching.]

[ When she notices Kazuma looking, the scratching stops, without her even really thinking about it. She is quiet for a moment, waiting for steam to rise from the kettle as she replies: ]

I experienced them as if they were real.

. . . [He knows, he understands why she didn't want to say anything to him. But he really wished she did. He can guess how much she endured on her own. And now, she's ignoring her arm when she noticed him looking. It could be nothing but...he reaches for her hand, slowly straightening the arm. He's not even going to ask as he slowly lifts her sleeve.]

[ At first, it really doesn't look like anything, and Susato doesn't resist, either. She's a little confused at first, and probably didn't even realise she was scratching it. Kazuma might even think it's safe to allow her kimono to fall back over her arm. Just as he'll allow it, however, there is a slight tingling sensation from the scar closer to her shoulder from Halloween.

This sensation continues trailing down her arm, like it is crawling, until the feeling spiders out right around where she had been scratching. The marks that appear there next look very faint, making it hard to tell, but it has a web-like appearance. ]

...?

[It's hard to see in the dim light, but he could definitely see something that should not be there. The look of worry clear in his expression.]

How long has this been here...? [He hears the whistling from the kettle as the water reaches to a boil. What a terrible time for that to happen as he reluctantly leaves Susato's side to continue prepping the tea.]

[ Terrible for him, perhaps. Susato feels rather thankful for the space for the moment as she swallows her surprise, and she is already reaching for her arm to feel it. It doesn't hurt; you could almost mistake it for dry skin...? Has she been neglecting her skin care lately?

She runs her hand along that arm, pushing her sleeve back up and keeps going until she can no longer feel it. At her shoulder, the scar is clearer, but she knows about that one, and by now, Kazuma would, too. ]

This... This was from the night we found Ryunosuke-san at the carnival in the dollhouse, but I've never seen...? [ She trails off, seeming unsure of how to describe the rest. ]

[There's the sound of water pouring. A moment later, Kazuma will returned with a tea tray, setting it on the table. The tea needed some time to soak before he can pour, so for now, he'll take a seat and continue their previous conversation.]

It hasn't gotten better? [Don't mind him, reaching to hold that arm again. It's hard to tell by his stoic nature, but he is starting to stress a little. These nightmares of things that have apparently happened to her, now this strange scar. Definitely worried now.]

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