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[noctuagoetia]

Sender: Stolas
To: Everyone
Subject: One Year Anniversary

Good evening everyone.

I haven't written in my journal for quite sometime. However tonight I'm feeling rather semimetal. It accord to me that this month marks my one year anniversary since being spirited away to this place. I can hardly believe I've been away for so long. I remember when I first arrived how badly I wanted to return. But now I... find myself wanting to stay. During my time here I have met so many wonderful new people, new friends', made beautiful memories that I fear I will lose when I eventually am forced to return.

I did return. Briefly.

Such an odd feeling. Waking up here as if my true home was the dreamworld. I am grateful that my memories of this place did not fade during my little vacation back to Hell. Which brings me to my query. Has anyone else experienced this? I am curious on how memories are stored while we're here. Perhaps there might be a way to retrain them once we leave.

Or, that is the hope at least.

Comments

[noctuagoetia]

There is at least that. If only I knew how it keeps its thw memories of the Dreamwalkers, then perhaps I can figure how we can retain them after we leave.

[herewardbound]

I'm inclined to think there's something to do with the Story Tree. There's a phrase originally coined by Heinlein. Pantheistic Solipsism. Conceptually, all stories, it suggests, are in some time or place removed from our own, true. The fact that I've met mythological demons like yourself, gods thought largely to be myth such as Loki, and many more fantastic entities straight out of science fiction and fantasy- the notion that it might actually be a valid explanation for the structure of the multiverse has a lot of credence to it.

Therefore, if there is a repository of stories readily at hand...

[noctuagoetia]

You could be on to something. I have also met other worldly gods and demons during my time here. If the Story Tree is indeed the root of all memories, then thw question is one, what makes this place special to have access to it? And two, if we can duplicate what harnesses the memories in other realms.

[herewardbound]

I have a hunch. The wish baubles allow us to connect to our worlds for a time, yes? Whether to reclaim something we've lost, or see into the present state of affairs. I think they might have something to do with it. Granted, this is all conjecture, but it's the best lead I have, at the moment.

[noctuagoetia]

That thought never crossed my mind. You bring up a very interesting point. I have yet to use these baubles so I have not seen how they work. If they do share a connection to our homes, surely there is a way to reverse the process.

Have you used one?

[herewardbound]

A few times, to reclaim items that I wanted from home, but I'll admit...

The prospect of looking into the present state of affairs back home isn't one I've been able to bring myself to face. I feel like it would either get my hopes up for something I could never have, or else serve only to bring my mood down.

[noctuagoetia]

I can understand your feelings on that matter. Thinking about the state of things back home that I would be walking back into weights heavily on my mind.

But! Let's not burden ourselves with such thoughts! We should focus on the present. Who knows how much time we have to spend with each other until we're called back to our home worlds.

[herewardbound]

At least you have something to go back to.

He didn't write that, didn't give voice to it. It was a stupid, petty, spiteful thought, anyway. It wouldn't have been helpful.

I'm going to have to bite the bullet and look at it, probably. As much as I don't want to... that function of the baubles seems, to me, to be integral to our goals.

[noctuagoetia]

If you don't mind me asking... What are you afraid of seeing?

[herewardbound]

Well. It wasn't like he cared about hiding anything, anymore.

It'll just confirm what I already know. Those who've already returned won't remember what we did here.

I'll still be dead, and everyone will remember me as the failed creation of a well-intentioned lunatic. They won't even mourn me. Why would they? I'm just a cognitive double. The 'real' me died last November.