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[noblegarnet]

Sender: Ferran

Have you ever missed someone who hurt you on purpose?

[It'll be good to confirm whether he's alone on that, one way or the other.]

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Sender: Aerith Gainsborough

[inheritedearth]

[The following response comes in flowery, slanted script:]

I guess that depends. What kind of hurt? Even if it was on purpose... was it their choice?

[noblegarnet]

For the sake of simplifying, we'll say emotional hurt, and it was their choice.

[it's not like he's got multiple situations going on or anything nah]

[inheritedearth]

I see.

[It's enough to help her formulate her answer, anyway.]

If it were me... I think if there were a lot of good times to remember, I might still miss them, even if I still felt that pain now and then. There's room for both. Feelings aren't easy.

Sender: Maedhros

[holdshisown]

...Yes. Though I know I'd be better off if I did not.

[noblegarnet]

I'm sorry. It would be too easy if you could just turn off those feelings, right?

[holdshisown]

Very much so, I suppose. I would have been able to avoid much heartache if I could have just made myself stop caring.

Sender: Naoya

[crouching_sin]

I have. Emotions are complicated, and not always logical.

You don't have to tell me, but what happened?

[noblegarnet]

[uh... where does he start]

We can say I have bad taste in the people I get attached to.

[crouching_sin]

That's fair to say. A lot of people do.

That's not to say it doesn't hurt, but it's at least not uncommon. If that makes you feel any better.

sender: beat

[stillarhino]

whyd i miss an asshole like that?

[noblegarnet]

People could have different reasons, I guess. Maybe they believed in someone too much, or they have just as many good memories as bad.

I'm sure it's good that you don't, though.

[stillarhino]

sure they got reasons
but just cause they got good memories or whatever dont mean they can get away with the shit they did

Sender: Zelda

[multidisciplinary]

Yes. I miss him every day.

[noblegarnet]

How long?

[multidisciplinary]

Almost five years.

[ Give or take a century, but mentioning that would just muddle the conversation. ]

Yourself?

Sender: Yato

[intertwinedfates]

Yeah, for a time. But I got over it and learned there's nothing to be gained from it.

[noblegarnet]

I'm glad you've gotten past it. Was there ever a tipping point, or was it just a slow thing?

sender: Kazuya

[belheir]

I'd love to miss him, but unfortunately I live with him.

[noblegarnet]

Oh.

[uhhhh]

I get it, I think. Even if it's not good for either of us.

sender: lyria

[azuresong]

[ Oh this... hits a little too close to home, especially with the recent absence of said person. ]

I do. I miss them very much...

But people change, and have a change of heart. People make mistakes, and I forgave them.

[noblegarnet]

[Ah—remorse, redemption, whatever you want to call it. What he wouldn't do to see some of that. It's part of why he's having as much trouble as he is, probably.]

That's very generous of you, I think. I hope they tried to make it up to you properly.

sender: Azula

[itstillhurt]

If they hurt you, you're better off without them. Missing them is foolish.

[noblegarnet]

I wouldn't argue that actively trying to keep them in my life isn't stupid.

[Certified idiot, Ferran Gallagher. Many of his friends would agree, he's sure.]

Missing someone or not is just a feeling, though. It's not a decision I can make.

Sender: Madoka

[puellamagi]

I think that... even if someone hurts you, they can still be important to you. It makes a lot of sense to miss them then, doesn't it?

[noblegarnet]

It makes a sort of sense to me, but I wanted to know if anybody else felt the same. If you don't ever talk about it, you tend to think you're the only one who ever thought some way, or went through something specific.

Or, I do, anyway.