Una questione di divinità.

[refantasma]

Sender: Nico
To: Everyone.
Subject: Gods.

Okay. How many gods are here? I've met two and there are three demigods myself included.

and demons while were at it. my father works with demons all the time and my children are demons so no judgement there.

Im just trying to figure out how this place works.

Comments

[book2thehead]

Ah, you too?? Though I guess if I really was awake, it was only for a day or so. And I didn't have anything quite so impressive going on~

In that case, congratulations on your growth! I suppose that's how you ended up with your [Checks notes.] fifteen children?

[refantasma]

oh they kinda came out of no where. had nothing to do with my character growth.

[book2thehead]

No? Then does that sort of thing just happen very often to gods and demigods in your world?

[refantasma]

weird shit happens all the time.

but Im the only demigod this has happened to.

gods can have kids with anyone, even if theyre the same gender.... but usually just one at a time.

[book2thehead]

Man alive, that must've been quite the shock for your fellow gods and demigods! Do you know why you managed to have fifteen, then?

[refantasma]

lots of dark emotions apprently.

[book2thehead]

[...Nico, your world is so fascinating to Heizou.]

So did you name them all after dark emotions?

[refantasma]

they were named for me.

Despair Isolation Guilt Contempt Sadness Shame Grief Fear Gloom Jealousy Envy Bitterness Stress Rage and Disgust.

Ive... ben through a lot.

[book2thehead]

I see... I'm sorry you had to go through all that. It must've been quite hard on you.

[refantasma]

Things are starting to look up at least.

[book2thehead]

Back home? Or by you having returned here?

[refantasma]

both. This is a nice getaway.

[book2thehead]

It really is, isn't it? I'm quite fond of it, too. :3

Out of curiosity, did you remember anything about this place when you were awake?

[refantasma]

[There's a noticeable pause.]

... itd be easier to say in person. Coffee?

[book2thehead]

[Interesting. There's only a moment's pause on Heizou's end.]

Coffee sounds wonderful! Pick a place and I'll meet you there~

[refantasma]

Dreambucks?

[book2thehead]

I can be there in ten minutes. :)

[Maybe not exactly ten minutes, but that is about how long it takes for him to get to Dreambucks!]

[refantasma]

[Nico got there pretty early. He shadowed traveled there.

He's got an indoor table and a frappuccino in front of him.]

[book2thehead]

[Heizou finds him easily enough, perking up with a smile and waving as he goes to join him at his table.]

You got here quick! It's been a while, hasn't it, Nico?

[refantasma]

I shadow-traveled here. It's always pretty quick. It can be pretty draining if I do it too much, though.

[Nico toys with his cup.]

Yeah. I was awake in November, and then Christmas is always busy.

[book2thehead]

Oooh, that's convenient! Though- Please don't tire yourself out if you don't need to.

[He's going to watch Nico do that for a bit, head tilting curiously. Is he nervous?]

Ah... Apparently I slept through pretty much all of December, so I missed that one. [What's a Christmas? They don't have that in Teyvat...] Did that help ease you back into the rhythm of this world, at least?

[refantasma]

Sort of.

[He let out a sigh.]

I didn't remember anything from here when I was awake.

I... not sure, how I feel about that.

[book2thehead]

And you said you were awake for a year, right? But only a month had passed here...

[Heizou looks thoughtful for a moment, watching Nico's expression carefully.]

It must've been terribly disorienting, then. Did the memories of your time here come rushing back all at once?

[refantasma]

Sort of. I've had my memory messed with before, so it was kinda like that.

[He frowns, bites his bottom lip.]

It was... well. Here, Jason and I started dating, and then we both woke up; he woke up a little bit before me, and we didn't remember it. Neither of us got to see each other again.

And now he's dead. And I have a boyfriend in the waking world, and I completely forgot about being with Jason here. It's...

I hate how it feels.

[book2thehead]

[He listens very intently, completely focused on Nico with a sympathetic look on his face. Only when he's finished does he even dare to move, shifting to lean forward on the table on his arms while he speaks, his tone soft and earnest.]

I'm... so sorry about that. It's never easy when something you know in your head doesn't agree with what's in your heart and vice versa. And of course there's the unpredictable nature of this dream world, ever changing who we meet and what we remember from our respective waking worlds...

[He shakes his head with a sad sort of sigh.]

I can only imagine how awful that kind of conflict must feel. Does it still bother you, or has it gotten easier with time?