Una questione di divinità.

[refantasma]

Sender: Nico
To: Everyone.
Subject: Gods.

Okay. How many gods are here? I've met two and there are three demigods myself included.

and demons while were at it. my father works with demons all the time and my children are demons so no judgement there.

Im just trying to figure out how this place works.

Comments

[refantasma]

no. but gods dont think like mortals.

yeah. i have friends and a boyfriend.

[wwtd]

Some do.

[ reflecting on ereshkigal and her very human and mortal wish to live and experience life's simple but wonderful pleasures. yato, at times, too. that might be wishful thinking, though. ]

Yeah. Friends are some of the best ups.

Is your boyfriend here?

[refantasma]

dont think that. they can be very convincing, but unless theyre very young they dont.

its nothing bad. its just something thats true. even if they want to think like humans.

[He thinks about Apollo, who had been mortal for a bit, and how he despaired about the divide between the gods and mortals.]

they are.

No wills probably asleep right now, but not dreaming deep enough to be here.

[wwtd]

I hope he's having nice dreams then.

[ she is so conflicted. more than that, she's unhappy. just how different are mortals from gods? could it be that much? at times she did feel that divide. that the near and far shore are apt names. opposing sides of the river of life.

other times, they didn't feel so far away.

but gods are born of human wishes, aren't they? there is humanity within them. she's seen it more than once. ]

What's the difference between thinking like a human and thinking like a god?

[refantasma]

I know he sleeps like a log when the suns down. he wakes with the sun.

Age mostly. they forget how time affects us more than them. how much less we have of it. they have different prioties and will focus on their domain over the people it touches.

Its not really a bad thing. frustrating some times.

1/2

[wwtd]

I know someone like that too, but not even the sun wakes him up sometimes.

[ not that she can talk with her narcolepsy ha ha ]

[wwtd]

[ frustrating. yeah, that's for sure. ]

What if there is a god that realizes that life and a mortal's time are precious? What if that god's priority is making other people happy and not himself?

[refantasma]

there is one. Apollo, my boyfriend's father. but he was only reminded of it when he was turned mortal.

I have to admit with my unique prospective on life and death Im somewhere between mortals and gods. I know where Ill end up when I die. Ill continue to exist as I am and continue to serve my father.

[wwtd]

[ more than one... ]

That sounds like you think like you have to.

[refantasma]

its an honor I fought hard for.

I think that to stay sane gods need to see things differently. imagine having a human perspective and living for so long.

[wwtd]

[ hiyori supposes it's not too different from how hard she was working to be a doctor and work with her father at their hospital. as long as it's something he wanted to do.

the second sentence leaves her speechless. hand unmoving. eventually, however, ]

I didn't think of it like that.

Is it painful for gods to be around mortals?

[refantasma]

it depends on the god. for my father - with certain mortals - it can be.

[wwtd]

Certain mortals?

[refantasma]

mortals that they come to care for or love.

[wwtd]

So

What do you think a mortal should do if a god cares about them? Would it be kinder to [ even writing it makes her feel sick. much less thinking about it.

the next two words are jagged, as if her hand shook as she wrote it. ]

cut ties?

[refantasma]

yes

mortals who are loved that deeply by the gods tend to die.

[wwtd]

[ I don't want to die. I don't.

But I don't want to lose Yato or Yukine-kun or anyone I've met, either.

I don't want to hurt them by being around.

What do I do?

What do I do? ]

I'm sorry for asking all of the questions when you were trying to figure things out yourself. Thank you for being so candid with me, Nico-san.

I wish I could've been of more help to you.

[refantasma]

[Nico doesn't really know how to respond to that. So he doesn't.]