໒꒱ 002 journal text

[lemoncandy]

Sender: Anonymous
To: Everyone
Subject: "Before" vs "now"

What do you do if you don't know where "home" is? If no one wants you, and you're stuck here anyway...

I've been thinking about the people I've left behind and keep wondering if I even want to go back. If they'd even really want me back.

I've never really belonged anywhere, and this place isn't all that different, but... at least there's someone who seems to care. But I thought that before, too.

I don't know what to think. I don't know why I'm even writing this.

Comments

[lemoncandy]

I see.

I guess I can try to think of it that way. It's hard after so long thinking one way to suddenly go back on it, though. I guess that's why I'm so difficult.

[ranchgirl]

[ Wow, Anonymous is really down on themselves. (Kinda like someone else Malon knows.) ]

You're not being difficult. Messy emotions are just part of being human! And you said yourself that you like feeling missed. That means someone cares about you. That's why missing someone and being missed isn't all bad.