໒꒱ 002 journal text

[lemoncandy]

Sender: Anonymous
To: Everyone
Subject: "Before" vs "now"

What do you do if you don't know where "home" is? If no one wants you, and you're stuck here anyway...

I've been thinking about the people I've left behind and keep wondering if I even want to go back. If they'd even really want me back.

I've never really belonged anywhere, and this place isn't all that different, but... at least there's someone who seems to care. But I thought that before, too.

I don't know what to think. I don't know why I'm even writing this.

Comments

[lemoncandy]

I don't know... They kind of get angry pretty easily.

Then again, I guess it's usually not at me?

[empyreancatastrophe]

If it usually is not directed at you, then the precedent is set that it will likely not happen if you ask them a question.

Conversely, we should also consider that the longer the matter is left unresolved, the more hurt, and therefore more angry, they may feel when it finally is addressed.

[lemoncandy]

They could feel hurt about it? I didn't think about that before...

[empyreancatastrophe]

It isn't a factor oft considered.

When attempting to mitigate damage, we tend to become so absorbed in doing the right thing that we lose sight of the bigger picture--of the potential harm our otherwise charitable intentions may cause.