໒꒱ 002 journal text

[lemoncandy]

Sender: Anonymous
To: Everyone
Subject: "Before" vs "now"

What do you do if you don't know where "home" is? If no one wants you, and you're stuck here anyway...

I've been thinking about the people I've left behind and keep wondering if I even want to go back. If they'd even really want me back.

I've never really belonged anywhere, and this place isn't all that different, but... at least there's someone who seems to care. But I thought that before, too.

I don't know what to think. I don't know why I'm even writing this.

Comments

[lethechained]

Some of us aren't easy to tell apart from them.
I'm sure you're not the first person to be confused in the beginning.

[ People rarely if ever notice any difference in her case - although that might be in part because Naminé has outgrown the only outwardly noticeable peculiarities of her nature. Someone attuned to the spiritual might be able to tell a difference, but otherwise...

In any case, angels and demons do make for a more dramatic pairing than cats and dogs. She can fill in the blanks well enough, eyes blinking wider as she reads. ]

I can see now why you described the situation the way you did.
I don't know much about angels or demons, but I know they can both be very dangerous.
You must have had a really hard time.

[ Not that that wasn't clear, but... what can she do besides express her sympathy? As for that other part, ]

I think you're right. You and I do seem to have some things in common.
In my case, there is one other person like me, since he and I were created together.
But even between the two of us, there are still some important differences.

[ Powers, certain fundamental aspects of their natures... it only gets more complicated, really. But that's hardly relevant; much more importantly, she's relieved to be able to write back, ]

You're welcome. I'm happy we were able to talk about this, and that you were brave enough to look for help.
I won't ask you for your name, but if we ever meet again, just know that I'll be willing to listen to you if you need it.

[lemoncandy]

( She's so sweet... Maybe there are other people here he should get to know. It almost makes him want to trust others.

But it feels so hard, at the same time. The closer he gets to wanting to open up, the more he closes down in defense. It's hard to break past that. )

Thank you. Maybe some day I'll tell you who I am. But for now... I'm just a grateful stranger.

[lethechained]

[ Old habits die hard, as they say. Naminé's certainly all too familiar both with trust issues and those others who have them, so she's smiling just a little as she writes back, ]

In that case, for now I'll just say that you're welcome, stranger.
And that it was nice to meet you, if we haven't met already.