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[mansbestend]

Sender: Denji
To: Everyone
Subject: lemme pet your dog

Fall's kinda pretty. The stuff here's kinda like the way it goes back home. The food kicks ass tho, that's the best part.

Anyway, my dog Maple is feelin kinda lonely and I was told to try doin somethin healthy for this "depression" shit. So I'm going for walks in the Wildlands and Maple gets exercise, right, but I don't see other people out doin this kinda stuff, or they do it way later than I do. I do it in the morning.

If you have a dog, Maple wants to meet em. If you dont have a dog, Maple wants to meet you. Dreamotion lets me talk to dogs, so its not like a speech barrier or whatever, so it'll work out.

Anyway, if it sounds like something you wanna do, hit me up.

Oh- does Halloween stuff happen here? I don't need to shop for a costume, but free candy to stuff into a drawer at home for late night snacking would be pretty fuckin sick.

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[mansbestend]

I feel that. I got used to havin tons of people around until that stopped

The quiet makes me itch

[holdshisown]

It gives you too much time to brood. Never really had time for that when I was keeping my brothers out of trouble, now I have too much time on my hands to sit around and think.

[mansbestend]

hey yeah
that's what happens to me too, I think about bad shit a lot when I'm by myself.

I've always been used to havin somebody to talk to, but then my best friend bit the dust and so did my public safety friends...

[holdshisown]

I'm sorry to hear that. I... I lost my best friend as well. My cousin. It's hard to move on after something like that.

[mansbestend]

i'm over it mostly
i still talk to him and hope he's listening somehow tho

sorry about your cousin.

[holdshisown]

I'm sure he does, wherever he might be. At least I'd like to think so.

...Thank you. I owed him my life and I couldn't even repay it in the end.

[mansbestend]

If I learned anything, it's that maybe just living is a way to repay when you owe somebody your life

It's why my buddy died, but
I told him to do what he did if things got bad anyway
Least I can do is eat good food and try to have a normal life so he can experience it in a way too

[holdshisown]

Yeah... I kind of failed at that too. He'd be terribly disappointed in me, no doubt, for how I let my life spiral after his death.

[mansbestend]

I mean if youre doin better here than home thats good right?

[holdshisown]

I... I suppose so?

[mansbestend]

then you're not disappointing anybody

Because I said so

[holdshisown]

You are very kind to say so.

[mansbestend]

i dunno, im just some guy

you only do the best you can with what you got yeah?

[holdshisown]

That is true... that is all anyone can do, right? Our best, even if we fall short at times.

[mansbestend]

right!

perfection's too hard and its pretty fuckin overrated anyway.

[holdshisown]

If there even is such a thing as perfection to begin with.

[mansbestend]

perfection? Never met her

[holdshisown]

Nor have I. And I have lived long enough to see all manner of things, yet perfection remains strangely absent.